Fearful and Cowardly or Bold and Talented?
14 "Again, it will be like a man going on a journey, who called his servants and entrusted his property to them. 15 To one he gave five talents of money, to another two talents, and to another one talent, each according to his ability. Then he went on his journey. 16 The man who had received the five talents went at once and put his money to work and gained five more. 17 So also, the one with the two talents gained two more. 18 But the man who had received the one talent went off, dug a hole in the ground and hid his master's money. 19 "After a long time the master of those servants returned and settled accounts with them. 20 The man who had received the five talents brought the other five. 'Master,' he said, 'you entrusted me with five talents. See, I have gained five more.' 21 "His master replied, 'Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master's happiness!' 22 "The man with the two talents also came. 'Master,' he said, 'you entrusted me with two talents; see, I have gained two more.' 23 "His master replied, 'Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master's happiness!' 24 "Then the man who had received the one talent came. 'Master,' he said, 'I knew that you are a hard man, harvesting where you have not sown and gathering where you have not scattered seed. 25 So I was afraid and went out and hid your talent in the ground. See, here is what belongs to you.' 26 "His master replied, 'You wicked, lazy servant! So you knew that I harvest where I have not sown and gather where I have not scattered seed? 27 Well then, you should have put my money on deposit with the bankers, so that when I returned I would have received it back with interest. 28 "'Take the talent from him and give it to the one who has the ten talents. 29 For everyone who has will be given more, and he will have an abundance. Whoever does not have, even what he has will be taken from him. 30 And throw that worthless servant outside, into the darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.' (Matt. 25:14-30)
8 But the cowardly, the unbelieving, the vile, the murderers, the sexually immoral, those who practice magic arts, the idolaters and all liars--their place will be in the fiery lake of burning sulfur. This is the second death." (Rev. 21:8)
While at first glance these two passages would seem to be unrelated to each other, for those of us who've lived under the shadow of fear, they are very much related.
I've shared in other posts (the most recent) how fear has often ruled my choices and affected my actions. Not too long ago, I read the Revelations 21:8 passage and the word "cowardly" really jumped out at me. It amazed me that being cowardly was thrown in with being a murderer, being sexually immoral, or practicing witchcraft, etc. I've noodled this passage quite a bit and upon reflection, I think I'm beginning to understand. And it has everything to do with the Matthew 25:14-30 passage.
Fear hinders us from using our talents, from sharing the gospel, from reaching out to others, from enjoying God's blessings. Fear robs us of a life well-lived, a life reflective of God's love, just as surely as indulging in any other form of sin robs us of those things. Fear when closely examined, is often simply pride. For example, fear of what other people will think is ultimately rooted in pride. Fear of being embarrassed, being made fun of, getting hurt is usually rooted in some form of pride.
29 Now, Lord, consider their threats and enable your servants to speak your word with great boldness. 30 Stretch out your hand to heal and perform miraculous signs and wonders through the name of your holy servant Jesus." 31 After they prayed, the place where they were meeting was shaken. And they were all filled with the Holy Spirit and spoke the word of God boldly. (Acts 4: 29-31)
There are numerous instances when the apostles and others in the New Testament church prayed for boldness and it's something I'm going to start praying to have. I am tired of living with and in fear. I want to be what God wants me to be - victorious in living this life He's blessed me with using the talents He's given me.
Tonight I took one baby step forward in that direction. As much as I dearly love chatting with friends, I'm extremely shy with strangers (another reason entertaining is so difficult for me)...usually because I'm worried about saying the "right" thing - acting the "right" way - if I look just "right"...all based in pride as I reflect on it. So tonight when my husband called wondering if he could bring some home-office guys over for dinner (in 30 minutes to an hour!), I said "Sure!". In the past I would have told him, sure if I'd had three months notice...(seriously, I was just about that bad)! They ended up wanting to go out for dinner but still wanted to stop by and meet me. Honestly, I'm more at ease serving up a meal than trying to engage in small talk, so this made it even harder for me, but I still said " Sure!".
I'd love to say while they were here I was transformed into Miss Conversationalist and Miss Socialite. I'd love to say that I didn't spend the next thirty minutes after they left wondering what they thought of my husband's wife. I wasn't and I did. But, it was a baby step in the right direction. A direction with God's help I plan to keep boldly following because when it's all said and done, I don't want to be judged by the True Judge as being cowardly.
Are there any fear battles you're fighting? How is God leading you to overcome that/those fear(s)?